So… it’s one year later and looking back at my last post from September 2012, I’m only 8.6 pounds less than I was a year ago, so in my head, I’m starting right from where I started before and that’s okay. I’m not going to beat myself up over my body. It’s a temple and no matter how much fat is on it, I love myself.
However, I’m going to start slowly making changes to start shedding the pounds. I work a more physical job than I did a year ago (bartending) and I have a better car and more money, so maybe I’ll splurge on a gym membership around the new year when it’s cheaper and after I lose at least 20 pounds to show myself that I’m serious about this.
I’m just going to watch my calorie intake and keep active. I’ve been jumping rope and dancing around my living room and I’ve lost a little weight doing that, so if I keep it up and maybe add that 2 mile walk/jog back into my life, I’ll definitely see success.
My biggest mistake when approaching weight loss before was that I wasn’t doing it for the right reason. The only good reason to lose weight to me is because I want to. Not because of some boy, not because I feel I’m doomed to be single forever, and not because I want to shop at Forever 21 or Buckle. Don’t get me wrong, they’re good side reasons, but they can’t be my main reasons. We’ll see how this goes. I’m not going to turn 21 and be wearing a size bigger than my age.
So much has happened in the few months I’ve been gone. I’m not even sure how to lose weight anymore. I’ve got a job, I’ve started college on campus, and I have a car. Like I said, I really hit the ground running. All of these things are what I wanted, but I’ve found myself right back at the weight I started at. Now, with less time on my hands, I can’t see how I should approach this. All my friends want to do is eat out (yesterday morning, I randomly found myself at IHOP with my bestie), I don’t make enough money to buy my own healthy food and gas, too. The only plus side is that the seasons are changing and it’s not so deathly hot outside, so if I make time to exercise. I’m going to have to really evaluate my life to know what I need to do. I didn’t lose weight the 1st time for nothing, but all my efforts are gone. I don’t know what to do anymore… Adult life with responsibilities and schedules is hard enough without wanting to renovate your body, but not having the time/will.